The place to start is to just create, create, and create... stop wasting my time with nintendo... stop wasting time with sleep... stop wasting time everywhere that time is wasted... I want to burn, to trigger, to incite... I want to be the tinder force of incendiary ideas... stop worrying about what I have to do with school, stop worrying about how much time there isn't... stop talking myself into corners... stop being afraid to start... stop using so many ellipses... Am I worried that I have too many ideas to put down on paper or am I worried that I don't have any ideas at all... has this first year of Scenography made research into a crutch... I feel that I can't do anything without research to back it up... I can't come up with any ideas that aren't based in something that's already been done... I want to create new things... I don't want to be that designer who garnered acclaim for basing things off of really good research, I want to be that designer who garnered acclaim for dreaming things that no one else had ever thought of... I remember sitting in Architecture History last semester thinking, "Why couldn't they use color, just because they thought the ancients didn't? And then suddenly once it is found that the ancients used color, and garish at that, suddenly color is on all of the buildings..." I don't want to feel bound to what has been done as a guideline to what I can do... I get the same thought when we discuss the French Academy and the three unities... Fuck the unities... if I want to write something that doesn't adhere to the three unities then I should... or conversely if I want to use the three unities I should, or if I just want two of them or whatever... Maybe my work takes place in the same location, in 24 hours but, hold on for the kicker, it doesn't follow one story... it follows two or five or fifty... I don't care... I don't care that someone else has done this, I don't care the Terrence McNally does this or that so-and-so has staked their career on it... people may argue that if I don't know art and theatre and design history, then I'm not creating something new, because inevitably someone else has done it... but isn't there some merit that it's new to me, that I came up with it without being influenced... I know though that I come up with things that nobody else apparently does... the referrer list is a prime example of this... I get hits every day for fhqwhgads, but rarely (if ever) for anything that I've written... there are entire pages out there devoted to quoting other people's articles or news or stuff... hell, I do it too on occasion, but that's just it, it's an occasional thing, not something I do every day... I have thoughts and ideas and feelings and all kinds of other shit that I post here every day... the next step is to branch these thoughts and ideas and feelings and other shit into more mediums... into film or paint or drawing or writing or photography or performance art or installations or... hell, I don't know, something... I'm ready to start, I just need to start it's time that this stopped being a place to query or be witty or obtuse, and started being my Manifesto (as the title implies)... it can be a place to query or be witty or obtuse as long as it's within the confines of my theatre manifesto Here is where my design aesthetic begins.